saturation

Last weekend I reached saturation point: I can't tolerate to wear the cochlear implant any more. I wore it for maybe a couple of hours on Saturday, a couple of hours on Sunday. Then on Monday i wore it for the 15-minute walk to work, for an hour at lunch time, and half an hour in the evening. That's all I can manage at the moment. Thing is I can't function with the implant - I can't work properly, can't socialise either. So I have gone back to wearing my hearing aid, aside from the short intervals in which I wear the implant. The implant is simply torture to wear and is hardly better than it was at the beginning so I'm rather discouraged with it. I can only wear it at times when I don't need to be actively doing something that requires concentration or effort because it is too much of an interference.

My next tune-up was not due til Monday next week but the hospital let me come in last Monday afternoon to describe the problem and we agreed to turn the settings down, add a softer program I can switch to if i need to, and wear the implant for limited amounts of time and build it up gradually. That's very sensible and i will do it, obviously I'm not going to give up on it this early. It will be like an exercise routine that I fit into the day and the rest of the time I won't think about it.